As I sit here...for the last 10 hours...working on school, trying to take care of hungry kids in the mix;-), and then after they are in bed sit here and worship to music that is crazy loud I try to tell myself to RELAX. Seth tells me to RELAX often. It is 1:45 am and the current song that is on is a song I actually have on repeat bc it just "THAT GOOD"(Will Ferrell's voice haha) but it is a song right next to Great I am that I just love!
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior.
I will call upon your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest your embrace
I am yours, and you are mine"
Oceans-Hillsong United
I want to relax. Its 1:45 and my radio is up so loud I don't know how much kids are not awake(since we live in a 950 square foot home) but when it's this loud and those lyrics are in my head and loud in my ears I find that sense of relaxation. I have worked for hours preparing for this school year. I am not where I want to be....in my preparation for school, my house being organized, my weight, my struggles with my flesh, or even my walk with Christ. But here I am. I can not pray for him to lead me where my trust is without borders and for my faith to be made stronger if I don't just take this moment and this exact place I am in my life and follow him. Trust Him. Lean on Him.So much is on my mind....now at 2:04 AM but I am just leaving it at that for now. I just want to keep my eyes above the waves and LET my soul rest in His embrace. After all he is my daddy. I just need to RELAX. Breathe. Life will always be crazy, thankfully He will ALWAYS be there in my craziness!!!
The two songs that grabbed at my heart tonight
Oceans--
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dy9nwe9_xzw
Great I am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_VR-zwp2KA
And then if you want a little something to rock out to...Skillet is always amazing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3KCKhNc5mI
the warm mess(although I feel like HOT mess at time)of a Jesus loving girl
Ash
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